I'm BACK!
I had no idea I took a 3 year hiatus from blogging.
My last post was in 2022. 2022!!!!!!!!!! OMG. Since then one of my kids graduated high school AND college and got a real, grown up job. The other kid moved up from middle school and is in high school, has a permit and I really want her to find a job so I can stop being her ATM.
Why did I take a break from blogging? I'm not sure. I guess I was feeling like I had nothing particularly amazing to share with the world. And I was struggling with what I was putting out into the world. Like- was I an over-sharer? Was it self absorbed to think people cared? Was I actually enhancing the world in a positive way? But lately I have been missing it. I have had thoughts that I wanted to puzzle through.
See, I recently realized . . . I am a premium adult (as one of my kids says). A little over a year ago- I realized I am the same age as my mom was when I got married. That realization blew my mind. Like- somehow realizing that I also realized "Holy smokes- I am a grown up." Clearly, I have been a grown up for a long time- I mean I am a parent of big kids, I've been employed in a career for over 25 years, I'm a homeowner, I have investment accounts. But now I'm like a grown up, grown up- a premium grown up- if you will.
A couple of summers ago- Doug, Alexa (our youngest), and I went to the beach for a few days. We went down to Tybee Island in Georgia. I had heard it was a great beach. The part we were at- was apparently a popular spot for bachelor/bachelorette parties. . . or at least it was that weekend. At one point, we were sitting on the beach, people watching and suddenly I said, "Doug . . . if someone has an emergency and looks for an adult to help, they might look at us- as we're the oldest people currently on the beach!!!!"
These two moments had a tremendous impact on the way I regarded my age. Plus, well . . . I am a 49-year-old woman with all the side effects of that age. I'm starting to seriously consider my second act- as I can retire in 2 years. I am on year 28 of teaching. My kids are not super into hanging out with me and I find that I have time on my hands. What do I do with that? What are my interests?!
So- I guess I'll look at my return back to blogging- as the end of my hiatus and the beginning of my 2nd Act.
Love this. I want to start writing more again too. I miss it. I too refer to myself now as a premium adult and wonder when in the world that happened. You are awesome. Hopefully, you will inspire me to start back again. Regina
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